wishes the fight is over

for all the tears and pains i tried to control but i failed to kept growing stronger. Accusing me of unfaithfulness is maybe your way to save your infidelity. these is the second time and if i failed to understand nor explain myself how to save us, it's all because i refuse to.

and yes it hurts so bad. but guess what? I have this courage to survive for myself and johan. though i am willing to try to work on this, but only 15% percent of that entire life span.

i am blogging to painful but sooner i'll switch to my ANger. Please don't push me into that, not on us. or let me ask to clear this one, is there really US?