damn regret!!!

You're the only one I turn to

When I feel like no one's there

And when I'm lonely in my darkest hour

You give me the power To sit and pretend

Gain and Drag on Thursday!

truth Thursday here,

I'd like to post this Bob Marley's Legend to help me pick up my broken pieces and

on my wall today: "i'm thousand feet underneath, can somebody drag me out of here". Coz lame, I'm drowning and having a hard smash aftermath of the pain i have been through in my relationship.

I fall down always, but never given up ever. This time, patience I'm wearin' is thin and all i have is beer (I'm counting on you).

My secret crowd, gracias!!

Letter that needs Expectant

I maybe too busy focusing on my Today and Tomorrows plan. I maybe don't give much attention to small details. I may be hiding what's running inside my brain. Cause honestly, I am always preoccupied.

As I'm having a lone coffee break in our empty office balcony just this afternoon, lots of picture flashes back and forth. I have there the mistakes that I wanna forget but not the lessons, I have to learn. Also, The Friendship that I didn’t mean to lose but I just let go. The family that I treasure for all my life and promised I can’t live without (J and J you complete me). About the love that I dreamt will remain a dream.

There it goes The memories and people I wanna hold unto, and I treasure the most.

I maybe too deafening, I owned some lexis and those belongs to me and will be mine forever. I’ll give myself a chance to share what’s for you I will not be selfish. I’ll be proud to say what I need to say.

For Now Let Me share this to you, [warning: emo not pls ].

“AutoParts Friends”

Jeremiah, I don’t usually treasure friends this much thanks for understanding my steering personality and for unexpected company you gave. We’re a Secret Crowd.

RC, Patience is a virtue and I’m glad you’ve learn to use its essence on me.

Rad, I ask God to have you even as an acquaintance but He gave me a real good trusted YOU and it’s too flattering

PJ, we don’t talk as often as we could but we can understand each other even in the weirdest and most badoy song.

Vince, I am not so 100% sure on this but I guess God gave me balance to keep hold my strength retention through you

Maita, you’re one of unexpected gift I treasure

Bernadetth, I love you this much don’t laugh I just really do

Joanna, I envy your cats for having you but they will envy me I am your friend more than what they think to themselves (har har). I owe you and Deth this self esteem I am holding now.

Gil Ching and Tristan, you always make me laugh. And you’ll always have me for your 30% audience impact

Paul and Rommel, Buddy!! Tru thick and thin, yosi breaks and IR tragedy you help me a lot. Gracias!!

Ices, thanks for the noise and music

Karren, as you always wish what you want to hear from me “Thank YOU”, I love you.

Joy, Jho and Bhing, Lucky I am I have this Tres Marias my lucky charm!!I love you!!

Ryan Ayala, Punks stir us up and friendship mix us well

Yuri, beby we have shared too little big lovely friendship

KC, Rico, Ras and Jher, you’re my abnormal friends, come what may you have me

Sweeney Teej, I am your fan and will always be. I am a friend the dear vianca you always knew

Cerah, I missed the Lake house friendship

MY TEAM MATE, thanks for the trust

Just like the piece of letter I wish to send. Hope this one can act as snail mail so it will not reach you unless you wait or expect it.

missed my Truth Thursday - - Silence, Sea Breeze, Blue Sky & Tea

It’s been a while. All i wanted is to sip a cup of hot/cold tea, seating on a tree house, watching sea waves and sands. Embracing sea breeze and indulging blue sky.

I may be in the mood of silence. Don’t want speaking out, arguments not allowed, and annoying rants bullshit.

I missed the truth Thursday post, from now on Thursday is the day that I will never forget. Thursday and Pink, I must hate you both but the commotion trilled me.
After those good fights against Them, I must gain the energy lost.

As I try a new way, I give up a friend. I swear I don’t mean it, situation is asking me. “I’m sorry”, its not a secret its complicated and it’s the best way to protect that friend.

Friends Come Along and Becomes History but Never Fades

On my wall today, maybe ill post this picture. To remind me and my friends that this one will not be just a simple picture but a piece of memory and something to treasure. I maybe not as expressive as normal but seems friends matters to me.

Yes, I don’t think it’s easy to forget friends. Coz I can’t live alone, I need friends to survive. And yes, we see each other 5 times a week. But seems the warmth of friendship is what I am missing. To RC, Maita, Vince, Rad, PJ, Jeremiah and GJ, don’t get me wrong, I just missed those days. Whatever happens to each of us keep in mind we’re friends, it’s unfathomable and real for me (I don’t know to you guys).